Ceasing Moment

I remember the moment
I said
NEVER AGAIN.
It took alot of me,
And alot from me
To utter those words
But I did it,
And it became me.

That moment changed me
Each time I felt like
Compromising
I've thought back to that moment
And all I'd taken
And all I'd given away
That brought me to that place.
Somehow any other challenge
Meant nothing to me
Because I'd already achieved
The hardest.

At the time,
Though,
It was not a
Conscience decision
To stop.
It was
The only alternative.

Suburban Awakening

It's the tale of a suburban housewife. Peering over the rose garden, pondering what to cook for dinner tonight. And yet, beneath it all, a dreamer's heart stirs. An awakening, a longing, a need to be a superhero, or a least a little off center from straight and narrow. As time eases on, traces, almost undetectable, emerge - a twinkling eye, a laugh a little too loud, a secret smile to the mirror. All signs of a soul awakening.

Commonplace Episode

The smell of strong liquor
And aftershave
Immediately spun me
Back there.
To a place without future,
Without heart, without hope.
So long ago it seems
The pieces were assembled
The picture
Made anew.
How can it be
That life's transitions
Become a commonplace episode
On the path
Of leading me here?

Happiness Not Eluded

I loved and lost
And loved again.
Then repeated this cycle
Twice more
Before stopping at
Security's gate.
Swinging open the iron
One last time
And tightly fastening
The lock behind me.
Now looking back
The expanded distance
Bland to my heart
As I realize
Happiness has not
Eluded me.