Let Go, I Scream!

Why is letting go of control the easiest and hardest thing to do?

Repeatedly I hear the phrase "Let Go and Let God."

Must it be my eternal plight to learn to let go of control, that I am not the only entity who may benefit my own life?

The millisecond that I forcefully release whatever I have fooled myself into thinking that I am controlling, I feel the lift, the breath, the confidence that everything is going to work out best. I then sigh for a moment, relish in the relaxation and then start trying to figure out how God is going to get this done for me. What system will be used? How will the process emerge? What steps will be taken to solve this challenge of mine? I instantly move from trying to control the problem to trying to figure out how to control the process of solving the problem.

Let Go! Let Go! Let Go! I silently scream. But, I have found that in reality, the only thing that really works in letting go is an unexpected view of beauty, a quick laugh, a good memory. For that moment I am instantly elevated to a higher realm, a better existance, a hopeful me.

The only reliable way that can happen is to remove myself from the current environment so one of these instances can occur.